Category Archives: Consciousness
I think our Reality is based on deceptions/lies and fantasies and we react to those things as if they are REAL. And when we find out what the Universe actually IS, it will be beyond our current understanding. This will do 2 things at the same time. It will DESTROY the last remnants of the old paradigm, the old way of living in physical reality, and MANIFEST the new way at the same time. An example is seeing Plasma discharges in the sky that we recognize as ‘ancient rock art’. Just that one process will drive immense change into our understanding of how the Earth and civilizations have risen and fallen. We will understand the concept of celestial cycles, myths and god-like acts across the heavens…It will be living archetypes that as yet, we cannot comprehend.
If people knew what I’ve experienced, they would flip out…even my best friends for 25 years or more can’t handle certain aspects of who and what I am and what I experience…fuck, even my wife has such a hard time with some of my experiences, she doesn’t want me talking about it to her. Scares the living daylights out of her.
People at work would FREAK out if they knew my experiences. Hell, they would be weirded out just by the knowledge I know, much less the experiences.
People just cannot handle it if I showed them who I really am. It is almost as if I live a different reality than they do…maybe I do…maybe most of us do, we just never share it with others, for the same reason I do not.
So, I have to integrate everything…It used to be like a vast juggling act, feeling all my relationships out finding out who can handle what and how far I can push my ‘real’ self out there before it is too much for them. Now, I just keep most of it to myself.
We’re all the same thing, in the end. Even our ET’s, whatever they truly are.
…the same thing, but the experience is separate, unique. It is an experiencing process to understand that beyond just a philosophical fantasy.
To say that is a skipping of all the stepping stones it takes to properly understand and experience what that truly means. It is beyond the human condition to truly understand and experience what that means.
And the experiencing will absolutely and completely change what you thought that statement might be…we are all the same ‘thing’, which means that by the time you truly understand that, and by the time you experience, you will be changed to the point that, if you were to see that future self at this moment, YOU WOULD NOT RECOGNIZE YOURSELF…
It is an easy concept to pretend you know, but EXTREMELY difficult to actually go through the process…dying onto you what you have always thought you were…how any people do you think are ready to go through that?
I look at myself and say that, like all other thoughts of this type of manifestation, certain dreams of what beautiful thing might manifest within the coming human condition, will simply remain a dream. Sucks to have that cynicism, but that is how my life has been from nearly the beginning. I have always wanted a break…a rest in my life. It never comes. My thoughts for so long have been that I cannot wait to die. This is not meant in a depressive way…it is meant as a way of release…to finally be able to rest again.
…unless, the dreams truly do end up manifesting here, at this place in time. Then, it might have all been worth it.